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Learning to live with a corpse
You knew it would happen. Firstthe wound openedand sprayed you with viscera, thenthe skin peeled back to raw flesh, and this next step was bound to happen one day. Yet even as the lump shifted beneath your wrist, and you knew it was worming its way free, maybe it wouldn’t? Maybe it would be fine? Maybe it would stay there. Please, let it stay there. You can’t deal with losing it now. Oh god, let it stay there. Not now. Please, not now. But it happened (of course it did!). And you know what? You’re okay. It wasn’t the end of the world.
Suddenly, it’s just… there
After turning the lump in your hands for a while, examining it from every angle, you pop it back under the skin and shuffle it into its old spot. This is not perfect, but it’ll work. You realise you can live with this, for now. More than that, you think you need to live with this right now. A sweeping solution is more than you can currently manage.
One day, your mouse will give out. At that point, do away with at all. Cast the mousemat away, trash the mouse, and start over. Rebuild from a clean (and Sheen-fresh) desktop. Who knows what you’ll use! Some vertical mouse, maybe? That could work for you. A combination of vertical and horizontal mice, even, swapping off as needs must? Maybe!
You feel it shift beneath the skin again. You know it’s still there, still loose, still waiting to reemerge. But if it does, so what? You understand what it is, now. You understand the problem. You have solutions lined up. And you can cram it back in, if you must.
It’s disgusting, no doubt. But it’ll be fine, one day. Hopefully soon.
